I decided to not go to church today. It probably isn't that good of a thing isolating myself .. but I just didn't feel like dealing with people today.
One thing that I've been thinking about now with having ended the relationship that brought me here, is ... Thanksgiving and Christmas and my birthday ... I don't have any vacation time allowed until after February 1. So it isn't like I could go anywhere for the holidays. I had thought I'd spend them with NE, but obviously that isn't going to happen.
Maybe I'll have made a friend by then here. It just feels like yet another stinky consequence of my move here. Don't get me wrong, overall I still believe the move was a good thing. I guess I just didn't really consider how holidays/birthdays would be if things didn't work between NE and I.
Just feeling really low right now.
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I did make my list of ten things I would like to do in the near future or a bit further. The local community college has a great continuing education program, as well as online courses - which is where I'm thinking of accomplishing some of this. In fact, that idea was given to me because of a school catalog that was left on a bus on Tuesday.
Here are the links to my posts about the list:
Items 1 and 2
Items 3 - 5
http://www.bubblews.com/news/6823592-ten-things-i-want-to-do...
Items 6 - 8
http://www.bubblews.com/news/6823779-ten-things-i-want-to-do...
Items 9 - 10
http://www.bubblews.com/news/6831300-ten-things-i-want-to-do...
There are other things I'm thinking about too, more financial wise, but that is for another time. The items above are more for a mental/social/emotional well being standpoint.
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You are right about the volunteering idea. It is something I would've liked to have done before, but never could get anyone to do with me. (Well, I sort of did one Christmas Eve - helped out at a hotel room for homeless people event in Dallas. That was awesome - my dad and grandma and aunt were all there too, just not at the event itself.)
September 6th, 2014 at 07:18 pm 1410031083
I know letting myself stay home and not interact isn't the best way to fight being lonely or make friends. I guess it is just easier to do since I haven't made any real connections there yet that I'm excited or anxious to see ..
September 6th, 2014 at 10:40 pm 1410043248
Hang in there FT!
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CCF - Wow! You would think after 3 years the habit would be gone. Sometimes I think that caffeine is a drug as bad as any illicit one - with how it draws you back to it.
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September 8th, 2014 at 01:45 pm 1410183924
About the holidays -- I know -- let's all go visit Laura! Wouldn't it be nice?
I have had to spend holidays all alone, too, and they were never as bad as I thought they would be. You've got to have a plan to get through the day. Don't just hang around. However, I remember one Christmas when I played my boys' video games all day and ate peanut butter sandwiches. For some reason, it was a great day!
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