If only . . .
my financial situation was different.
I lived on the ground floor with a fenced in yard.
I wasn't gone 10 - 14 hours most days.
I lived in a house.
If only.
Then maybe things would've turned out differently tonight.
My downstairs neighbors have a Taco Bell dog (or a Chiuaua sp?). Most of the time when I am home - especially on weekends, I hear it crying and whining. Sometimes when its in their half a postage stamp backyard crying its little heart out, I have gone out on my balcony and leaned over and talked to it.
Tonight I was watching t.v. and heard it whining in the foyer. I actually went out my door and almost started down the steps once, but turned back. Finally when my program was over I just COULD NOT stand it anymore. So I went down the stairs and sat on the bottom step.
The dog stuck its top half of its body through the stairs and laid its head on my lap as much as he could while I petted it and talked to it. This went on for maybe 15 minutes.
A car passed by and the driver looked into the foyer and saw the dog and I. She looked very excited. A little girl got out of the car and came in. She told me that Maxie (the dog) had been lost for two days. That it was the third time he'd gotten out.
She also told me that they realize they can't take care of him like they should, and are looking for a new home for him.
OMW! My hearts first response was I"LL TAKE HIM!!! But my head calmed my heart down. It would be so selfish of me to take in a dog. I sure as heck wouldn't be leaving him outside by himself for more than a few minutes at a time - if that - but he'd have to be cooped up in the apartment for at least 10 and more hours a day. Then I also realized that I really don't have room in my budget for vet care.
I would have spent every dime I had on my cat - it would have hurt, but I would've done it. But now . . . I just don't have room in my budget for vet bills. This little dog deserves someone who can give it the time and attention it deserves every day. It deserves a nice yard to run and play in - not to be cooped up in a small apartment from sunrise till past sunset.
But oh my word it just breaks my heart to NOT take that sweet puppy in my arms and give it as much as I possibly can.
If only things were different.
If only . . .
February 20th, 2008 at 04:04 am
February 20th, 2008 at 04:34 am 1203482055
February 20th, 2008 at 04:53 am 1203483182
February 20th, 2008 at 05:26 am 1203485162
I just am not in the right time or place right now to take on the responsibility of a pet - especially a dog.
Someday when I'm in my house with a nice backyard . . . Someday.
February 20th, 2008 at 05:46 am 1203486409
February 20th, 2008 at 02:39 pm 1203518379
February 20th, 2008 at 02:49 pm 1203518967
February 20th, 2008 at 03:22 pm 1203520932
February 20th, 2008 at 03:34 pm 1203521678